marriage

what do you do when you feel like your marriage has failed?  how do you even begin to deal with that?? 

i have reached a point in my marriage where i just don't care anymore.  it is a loveless, sexless marriage.  i can't even remember the last time we kissed.  i just don't know what happened or where it went wrong.  i guess in reality it was probably a long time coming.  just too many issues that i put up with for so many years.  partially because i love him and partially because i kept waiting for things to change.  for him to grow up.  but now that i am hitting midlife i find that i don't want to wake up a couple years down the road and wonder where my life went.  i have never travelled, never done anything exciting and never truly felt loved and wanted.  i don't want to be like that forever.

so now my question is how do i get out of it??  do i attempt to kick him out?  do i leave on my own??  i know that i couldn't afford rent/mortgage on a place for me and the kids.  i don't hate my husband, in fact i still love him very much.  but i just want so much more out of life than the existence that i'm living now.

i don't know if anyone reads these or not, but i could really use some advice right now.