ouch

so i finally broke down and went to see a doctor for the first time in a number of years.  i felt a swelling lump at the bottom of my hairline at the beginning of the week and chalked it up to a zit since i sweat when i sleep.  then the next day i noticed another one further over to the right, only this one didn't feel like a zit.  the next day i noticed i was itchy behind my right ear and found 3 more.  this panicked me enough for me to make a doctors appointment.

i was told that they are lymph nodes which means that they are little pockets of white blood cells that are protecting my body from an infection that it is fighting.  i don't know what the infection is as i don't feel anything different other than the lumps.  they took some blood samples from me and prescribed me some antibiotics.  i have to take them for 10 days and then go back.  if the lumps are not gone (or at least gone down) by then, i may have to have them surgically removed.

needless to say, i am a little scared right now.  so many thoughts and worries are going through my head.  when i looked up lymph nodes on the computer, the word cancer comes up every time.  makes me wonder sometimes whether internet is a good thing or a bad thing.  

i have taken 3 pills so far (only 27 more to go).  i just want this pain and itchiness to go away.  i want everything to be better.  and i most definitely am NOT ready to die.